Fudgeroo

Beberapa menit yg lalu gw keluar dari lecture theatre, right after I finished my mid semester test. Mau tau apa yg gw paling benci dari exam? The feeling you get when you thought you aced the exam, but then someone came up to you and said: "nah dude, you're supposed to do it this way, that's what (insert class valedictorian name here) said, and you know he's ALWAYS right!"

This is the part where I would say: "Fudge".
cue emotional theme song:
My self esteem and confidence skydived.
With no parachutes.
Boom.

Tapi enggak :P I mean, Big Fucking Deal.
I did my best and that's all I need to know. Now, in other news:

Ada yg tau Ian Thorpe? Perenang Aussie di awal taun 2000, dulu ngetop bgt, sempet represent Australi pas umurnya masih belum 20. Akhir2 ini kan medical testnya disebarin ke publik, yg dibilang kalo dia make hormon testosteron. Itu sebenernya legal gak sih? Apa hukumnya sama aja kalo lu make hormon2 lain? Atau selegal protein? Sebenernya yg bikin gw penasaran tuh apa efek panjang dari make hormon2 'penguat'. And sometimes gw wonder.. will it, you know, make a man's spear of destiny bigger? Gw waktu itu ntn Fight Club, terus kan salah satu karakternya, si Paulson kalo ga salah, testesnya dipotong, soalnya dia kanker kelenjar kelamin. Jadinya di tubuh dia jadi lebih banyak hormon Estrogen, and he got man boobs and has a soft female-like voice (trivia, yg main karakternya dia tuh Meatloaf). Kalau cowok lebih banyak estrogen, berarti dia jadi lebih.. kewanita2an yak? Lebih suka ntn chick flicks? Ama tumbuh toked? :P Gw juga pernah baca artikel yg org dilahirkan dengan joni yg kecil abis, jadinya keliatan kyk .. alat reproduksi wanita. Kalo istilah kedokterannya, 'micro'. Terus kalau org kyk gitu dikasih hormon testosteron, itunya bisa tumbuh jd normal ga ya?

Gw lagi di komputer lab, setengah jam setelah test gw tadi selese. I don't feel like going home, because I have to finish an assignment anyway, and I could never study at home. I think it has something to do with my computer screen, it has an enormous presence..

Anyway, gak kerasa bentar lagi udah easter break.. dan masih belum ada autumn leaves. Gw inget bgt, taun lalu tgl 7 april, pohon oak di kampus gw (yg gede abes) daunnya udah mulai merah. Tadi gw kesana, warnanya masih ijo, terus panas abis lagi. Damn global warming. Kalo kata guru earth science gw, global warming ngebikin climate di southeast australi (i.e. sydney, melb) jadi lebih panas dan kering, dan jadi lebih banyak hari yg panas di satu taun.
Terus tadi pagi gw baca koran yg dari hari sabtu kemarin ini, isinya ttg climate change di Australi. Katanya kalau pemerintah dan org2 melb gak mau berubah (i.e use less electricty, less water, use public transportation), dampaknya tuh bakalan parah bgt. Di taun 2020, kalo kita ga ngapa2in, jumlah hari yg panas di satu taun jadi bertambah 100%, jadi autumn datengnya lebih telat, dan winternya jadi lebih pendek dan kejam (i.e. dari autumn yg anget, tiba2 jd turun drastis jd dingin). I can't help but to think 'wow, oz's pwned'. Policy pemerintah sini gak terlalu mau ngelawan sesepuh2nya di US. Tadi pagi ada kartun gitu di the age, yg john howard bilang "we have an advantage! we have an advantage!" sambil dorong2 org dengan label "coal mining, gas, uranium" ke bawah bukit.. di bawah bukit tulisannya "climate change". Ngerti gak? Australi tuh baru strike gold (i.e. tin, copper, coal) di jaman2 dimana climate change jd kerasa bgt.. dan industri2 kyk gini contributing directly to global climate change; mining.. terus belum lg hasilnya yg dipake buat pabrik2.. pembangkit listrik..
Untung di saat yang salah.. kasian juga sih.

Truth be told, I'm a bit bummed out that easter break is only one week, I could use at least 2 weeks of holidays :( Pingin jalan2 ke city.. ketemuan ama org2 baru. Well, maybe not that many org2 baru, I hate having to meet so many people and be expected to remember all their names while they (somehow) managed to remember mine. But I do want to meet this person yg gw liat di jazz nite seminggu yg lalu.. meh, ga enak juga jd panitia, ga bisa ajak kenalan org2. -_-

Meh.

I'm hungry.

Signing off,
Putra

today's playlist: scrubs ost, radiohead, silverstein sucks balls, john mayer, frou frou, minus the bear