Ah udah lama gak ngeblog. Pingin cerita, tapi gw gak tau kenapa, kalo pake bahasa inggris somehow gak bisa keluar aja. Gw merasa gelisah, dan gw bener2 gak tau kenapa. Akhir2 ini.. gw ngerasa kayak detached. Detached as in.. detached.

Yes, I know that's very descriptive.

Minggu pertama uni, seperti biasa, org2 bertukar cerita mereka ngapain aja selama liburan.

Gw bingung. Gw rasa yg gw alamin di Indo tuh asik bgt, walaupun kok kalo gw pikir2.. kayaknya gw cuman stuck di satu tempat di dunia ini even though I can go somewhere else. Setiap kali gw denger cerita temen2 gw yg backpacking keliling Asia ato US waktu liburan kemarin.. gw langsung bingung dan bener2 ngerasa kalo gw belum ngapa2in. Gw liburan kemarin gak kerja, jalan2 juga enggak.

I'm glad it happened though. I mean, the fact that I didn't work during summer means I get to spend a lot of time relaxing. But then..

Why am I still waiting for my life to start?

Gak kerasa, bentar lagi udah mulai saatnya untuk apply buat vacation work. Summer ini kerja. Taun depan kuliah setaun lagi. Terus lulus. Kerja.

It seems like there isn't going to be enough time for me to start living.

Gw inget cerita bokap dan nyokap gw ketika mereka masih kuliah. When he was in Uni, dad drove down the US west coast on a road trip. Mom travelled to Europe soon after she graduated from uni.

I am grateful. Some people would kill for the state I'm in right now. However, what bothers me is that I know that I can go places. I just don't know why I can't do that. It's frustrating. It seems as if there's always something that's holding me back.

Gw gak mau lulus kuliah, langsung kerja dan mulai hidup seperti org2 lain.. dan gw gak mau tiba2 udah umur 40 dan craving untuk pergi ngelakuin hal2 yg gw harusnya lakukan sekarang ini.

I'm 20 years young, and I'm still waiting for my life to start.