I haven't had a decent sleep in three days, and I've had an excess amount of foreign substances in my body. It made me remember a couple of things from last year. This time last year, I was chasing this girl (it didn't turn out well, as you can see I'm still single as of now. And most probably will be by the time you're reading this in 2009 or something), and I don't know what got into my head, but I consumed a whole lot of substances during that time. Probably it has something to do with me getting stressed out from the fact that I'm chasing a closed-off introvert. That wasn't fun.

So I was walking down the street the other day, and I saw this guy chain-smoking a box of cigarettes. Then I wondered, what made him do that? To boost his self esteem? To feel good about himself? The thing about chain smoking cigarettes is, you get this feeling that you're looking like a total bad-ass. It's true that nicotine makes you feel good. Hence why there are smokers. Duh.

But is it because of the nicotine? Is it possible that their perception is altered by some sort of a placebo effect? Society's perception on cigarette smoking has grown to be unfavorable in the last few decades, but the preconception of its glamorous image continues to this very day.

So what am I trying to say here? Is it possible that you feel good when you're chain smoking in front of your friends just because it's a cool thing to do so? Ok, maybe it's not a cool thing, but it certainly turns people's attention towards you. And you know how good that feels.

Ok, I know that this is not the case with most chain-smokers, since there are those who indulges in this sort of pleasure when away from their close friends. And yes, most smokers are addicts anyway, so they wouldn't take those factors into consideration when chain smoking. But is it possible that this addiction is created by the mind to fuel your ego and pride? Sort of like a placebo effect. It has become a recurring habit that it classifies as a substance-addiction.

I guess the point I'm trying to make here is that one, smoking kills. Well, that's up to you to decide, but the Victorian government is paying me to say this. Just kidding. But seriously, smoking is not quite good for your health. Two, there is a thin line between physical addition and imposed addiction. Could it be that your mind wants you to become addicted?

I guess it's the same thing with having a continuous desire for a person. The feeling kind of grows on you and leaves you feeling like shit when you're not exposed to this 'substance'. Hmm. Think about it.