Patterns

I'm a jackass.

Why do I feel like I'm living my life to a set of patterns? It's always the same thing from year to year ever since I got here. I get to know an 'interesting' girl, instantly smitten by whatever it is that makes me attracted to her in the first place, then I screw up somewhere along the line and ends up feeling like shit. Then I lash it all out on my friends and family.

Then there's another pattern, I join a group, gets too involved, and ends up feeling like quitting his commitment. And forgetting why I was involved in the first place.

Life is not a sitcom. There's no pattern.. there shouldn't be. There shouldn't be any repeated inside-jokes or running gags throughout the entire series. In fact, I don't think there should be any drama at all.

Dramas suck.

On the other hand, back to what I'm trying to say.

I think it's happening again. The patterns. It's time to break the cycle.